i guess we shouldn’t complain about last weeks blizzard or, the one coming on wednesday.
“Nature has no mercy at all. Nature says, “I’m going to snow. If you have on a bikini and no snowshoes, that’s tough. I am going to snow anyway.”
- Maya Angelou
the universe is speaking to me in a code i cannot decipher. i know it is.
i was asked to give the talk at dharma service tomorrow. for the last several days i’ve been rolling ideas around in my head on what i will speak about. nothing is real, everything is an illusion, time is an illusion – all been said before – over & over. but really, when you think about it , what has the buddha said lately? there’s not too much news as far as i can tell. i even checked the dalai lama’s facebook page for ideas but he’e pretty well claimed the market of talks on compassion. i wonder if he really posts all those things on facebook himself, or if that task is delegated to some junior monk in training.
anyway, ‘ time’ . . . time keeps coming up for me. and i keep feeling like i am running out of time to write this talk – which is freaking me out a little bit and instead of just writing it, i keep picturing myself nervously standing up at the podium, sweating profusely in front of the entire sangha with absolutely nothing to say. there is no such thing as time? buddhists believe that time is an illusion. if that’s true, then how come i’m not living back in the city? i thought it was taking time to save funds for the move. so if there is no such thing as time, where is the money and the apartment - – and the husband for that matter. i was sure it was all a matter of time. i guess all of this could translate into a talk on patience but as sure as i know anything, i know i am not qualified to give a talk on patience.
apparently i live in a world of illusion and the universe is trying to tell me so. yesterday when i woke up i went to the living room to practice my morning meditation as usual. the clock on my cable box said 186. at this moment, the clock on my cable box says it’s 1000. (no joke).
maybe time really is an illusion.
“She had a big coat with pockets she filled with crackers & cheese & little wrapped chocolates in case (she said) she ever got trapped too far from a convenience store. I don’t take civilization for granted, she said.
This year we will experience 4 unusual dates….
1/1/11, 1/11/11, 11/1/11, 11/11/11
Now go figure this out . . . .
take the last 2 digits of the year you were born plus the age you will be this year and it will equal . . . . 111
“Do not worry about your problems with mathematics, I assure you mine are far greater.”
– Albert Einstein
it is 3.6 but with the wind chill factor it feels like 4.
“I can believe anything provided it is incredible. “
- Oscar Wilde
wikipedia says: Electromagnetism is one of the four fundamental interactions of nature. Electromagnetism is responsible for practically all the phenomena encountered in daily life, with the exception of gravity.
i’m not entirely sure what that means but i think i may be exceptionally electromagnetic – again. it comes in waves. it was only in the last 10 years i was able to wear a watch. before that they would stop within 5 minutes of putting one on. every type of watch would just die. cheap watches, expensive watches, underwater watches – i just couldn’t wear a watch. i also couldn’t pass through an airport security system without beeping – way before 9-11 – needless to say it was not my watch. or anything at all. i would just set off metal detectors, probably still do but everyone seems to at the airport these days.
i have a bit of a challenge with electronic devices too. in the last 7 years i’ve gone through 6 computers. – 6 – all brand new. 2 hp’s & 3 dell laptops & my last desktop which died for no apparent reason at the age of 3 in 2004.
i’ve had more telephones than anyone i know. my guess is somewhere around 5 or 6 land line phones and approximately 7 cell phones in the last 10 years. if you don’t believe me, just ask ellice. she’ll tell you it’s true. i usually call her when i’m having an electronic meltdown, so she knows what i’m talking about.
sometimes i blow out light bulbs just by walking into a room. i have 4 rooms in my apartment and blew out 4 light bulbs today.
i buy batteries by the case. i watch tv for about an hour at night and yesterday i replaced the batteries in my remote for the 3rd time since june. who does that?
i should probably get off my computer now.
“I would rather live in a world where my life is surrounded by mystery than live in a world so small that my mind could comprehend it.”
- Harry Emerson Fosdick
i’m getting a seal. it may make my apartment hunting in the city a bit more challenging but it must be done.
“Love is the harmony of two souls singing together.”
- Gregory J. P. Godek
i’ve learned some things on my jersey sabbatical - things i never would have known if i were in the city. i rarely watch tv in the city – there are just too many more interesting things things to do, even if it’s just taking a walk around the block. i will admit that if i was home working past 9:oo pm i would usually have law & order on in the background – but having seen every law & order episodes way too many times i can no longer even stand to have it on.
in any case, here i am alone on a saturday night, feeling pretty low. in a desperate attempt to find something to watch, i came across a show i had never heard about before and the title made me a bit curious. “my strange addiction”.
this has to be the strangest show i’ve ever seen – ok, i’ve really only seen law & order, criminal minds & without a trace, but still – my strange addiction? i hit the select button. i am truly in awe. in awe about the very strange things people are doing and even more in awe that people go on tv to apprise the world.
addiction #1 crystal cannot stop eating household cleanser. comet. she has been eating comet for over 30 years. she loves the taste and the gritty texture. she just can’t seem to stop. the dentist has just informed her that she must have all of her teeth extracted because they were dangerously deteriorated.
addiction #12 samantha is addicted to tanning. she visits a tanning salon three times a day – - a day! in addition to that she lies out in the sun every chance she gets. the dermatologist told her she has a 75% chance of getting melanoma so she cut back to tanning once a day.
stay tuned for next weeks episode where we will meet a woman who cannot stop herself from eating couch cushion innards. she is addicted to the foam.
i feel better now.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
||AM Clouds / PM Sun
||PM Snow Showers
this is simply a public service announcement for you safety – not a complaint.
“I know what I have given you. I do not know what you have received”
- Antonio Porchia
first on the scene -
i am thankful my commute is only from the bedroom to the living room.
“God promises a safe landing but not a calm passage.”
- Bulgarian Proverb