Monthly Archives: June 2009

weather people

i always thought being a tv network weatherperson must be the coolest job in the world.

1. you get to get dressed up everyday and have your makeup professionally done for you.

2. you presumably make a lot of money.

3. you get to be on television everyday.

4. you get to say what ever the hell you want all the time and don’t get fired when you screw up – even if you screw up daily!

so it’s been raining for a month and forcasted to rain for pretty much another month, with the exception of a small peak of sunshine on july 5th. there are only 3 more days left in june and summer has yet to come.  i’m so sick of the rain that last night i decided not to set my alarm clock and just sleep as late as possible in an effort to avoid a good part of another gloomy depressing day. it is saturday & i didn’t know of any good reason to be up at 6:00 am just to spend yet another day trying to calm ivan during the thunder and lightening storms. i didn’t wake until 10:00 – only to find a georgeous sunfilled day with beautiful blue skies. i have no plans as it was supposed to be raining all day – damn those weather people!

backyard view

backyard view

“Men judge us by the success of our efforts. God looks at the efforts themselves.”
Charlotte Bronte

june sucks

88° F | 70° F
Chance of a Thunderstorm
81° F | 65° F
Rain Showers
79° F | 67° F
Chance of Rain
77° F | 65° F
Chance of Rain
77° F | 65° F
Chance of Rain
76° F | 65° F
Chance of Rain
79° F | NA








i just looked at the extended forcast through july and on july 5th there’s only a 10% chance of rain and a picture of the sun – whoo hoo!  i’ll have to be sure to make plans for july 5th. i’m finding it challenging to be ‘zen’ in the city these days but i will continue to practice.

“Never borrow from the future. If you worry about what may
happen tomorrow and it doesn’t happen, you have worried in vain. Even if it
does happen, you have to worry twice.”

birth & death

it’s tracey’s birthday- we’ve know each other for 29 birthdays –
   happy birthday, Trace!

today farrah faucet (62) and michael jackson (50) died. 
very young –  very sad.
the guinness book of world records certified michael jackson as most
successful entertainer of all time.
farrah was one of the most beautiful people on the planet
–  according to me, not guinness.
god bless them both.

Death  – the last sleep?  No the final awakening.

-Walter Scott

being present

two & a half years in the school of practical philosophy (which focuses mainly on the teachings of universal truths and present moment awareness), weekly meditations and dharma talks at the won buddhist temple and countless personal growth retreats, seminars and books have helped me to come a long way in my present moment awareness over the years.  admittedly i have  a long way to go before i join the likes of ram dass, pema chodron or the dalai lama. i have learned to listen more, and give closer attention to my thoughts and behaviors – as well as the thoughts and behaviors of those in my presence. i have noticed i screw up alot and find myself doing things which appear to be guided by little thought. i notice this about those around me as well. although i try not to judge, i notice that often i do –  i know i’m making progress when i do not attach myself to my judgements and can simply notice them and let them go quickly, and return to being present. i struggle with that this morning.

it is june 23rd. with the exception of june 1st, 6th, 16th and 19th it has rained.  so far this month we have had 8.35 inches of rain in the city. we are all sun deprived and water-logged. it is forecasted to rain today.

while i was out walking ivan this morning it was much darker than it should be at 7:00 am and the sky was thick with clouds. as i rounded the corner at 2nd avenue and 74th street i saw the doorman employed at the highrise building on that corner, hose in hand,  watering the outdoor plants.

i do believe he needs a seminar, a book, a wake up!  this i realize is none of my business.  i am sure it will come back to me tenfold today – i’ll probably walk into a pole or something.  i will continue to practice.


One of his students asked Buddha, “Are you the messiah?”
“No”, answered Buddha.
“Then are you a healer?”
“No”, Buddha replied.
“Then are you a teacher?” the student persisted.
“No, I am not a teacher.”
“Then what are you?” asked the student, exasperated.
“I am awake”, Buddha replied.

first monday of summer

i  haven’t read the ny post horoscope in years but somehow felt compelled to do it today. if today’s prediction proves true, i will put the post horoscope back on my daily to do list.

NY Post

One of the best times of the year begins for you with today’s new moon in Cancer, so make your plans big and believe – really, really believe – that you will accomplish great things. There is nothing you cannot do.

ok – here are the plans i will make for today:

1.  i will plan a 3 week vacation to bhutan

2.  i will plan on quadrupling my salary

3.  i will plan on moving into a beautiful loft in soho

4.  i will plan on meeting my soulmate

5.  i will plan on sunshine

although there’s more, i do have to make time for the gym, work & philosophy class today, so i will leave it at that for now.

“Efficiency is doing things right; effectiveness is doing the right things.
– Peter Drucker

more rain

today is the first day of summer.  it has been raining since, well as along as i can remember. this weeks forecast:


rain all week. 

 it’s father’s day. mom broke her sholder last week so dad canceled father’s day on account of her pain. 
i called to wish him a happy father’s day and learned that thomas & his family were on their way over.
i wonder if mom was just in too much pain to see me?

“The best thing one can do when it’s raining is to let it rain.”
 – Henry Wadsworth Longfellow


tooth fairy

my niece sara lost her first tooth! she swallowed it. i wonder if she did it on purpose to avoid the whole tooth fairy thing. . .  (see 6/14 post)

“We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same.”
Anne Frank



the neighborhood homeless man i’ve been saying hello to for 3 years introduced himself to me tonight.  he said his name was gary, he’s from west virginia and was married for 18 years.  he has 3 suitcases, a tape recorder and a cell phone.  he asked me for my number.   i wonder how gary affords a cell phone.  i can barely afford to pay my cell phone bill and i have a job. . .


My 5 year old niece called to tell me her tooth was  ’wigglin’.
She proceeded to tell me that she was not sure when it would fall out but when it does she will put it in the tooth fairy box,   put the box in a ziplock bag and place it on the floor for the tooth fairy.

”Why aren’t you going to put it under your pillow?” I asked.

“Because I don’t want the tooth fairy to lift my head,”  she replied.

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.”
Elenor Roosevelt


May 2009

while walking down 1st ave i notice a large crowd gathered at the corner of 75th street.  i cross the avenue to see why everyone is gathered. as i near the corner i see an old man has fallen and is lying face in the pavement – in a pool of blood – a big pool of blood – and he wasn’t moving.  it seemed as though he had been down for quite some time as everyone seemed agitated about how long it was taking the ambulance to arrive.  there was a girl bent down next to him. she was rubbing his back and telling him the ambulance was on it’s way, while the other’s watched.  from the corner of 75th & 1st ave i looked directly across the avenue to the opposite corner of 75th and saw an ambulance. it was parked directly across the street from this man lying face down in a pool of blood, unable to move, surrounded by a large group of people waiting for an ambulance!

the ambulance was parked right next to a bus stop where another crowd of people stood looking at the injured man across the street. without waiting for the light to change, i crossed the avenue to get the paramedics. i banged on the window to get the attention of the two paramedics inside.  the driver was enjoying a sandwich while the other did a crossword puzzle.  obviously annoyed, one of the medics opened the window to find out why i was interrupting them on their break time.   i pointed to the man laying in a pool of blood just across the street the medics seemed even more annoyed – the one in the passenger seat even rolled her eyes at the driver! as they crossed the avenue i heard the sirens of another ambulance on it’s way.  i said a prayer for that man and went home.

“Think of the poorest person you have ever seen and ask
if your next act will be of any use to him”