Category Archives: zen

have you seen penelope?


 

in the event you were planning a vacation to the city, you may want to re-think your travel plans – or at least stay on top of this story from the post . . . . .

 

Pregnant tarantula on the loose in Park Slope

Help, my giant poisonous spider is missing — and she’s pregnant!

A hairy Mexican red rump tarantula named Penelope is on the loose in Park Slope. . . . “She’s mostly active at night and she tends to hide in dark corners,” . . . On the sign, the pet owner asks whoever finds her to put her in a “tupperware bowl” with holes, so she can breathe.

 

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When you seek it, you cannot find it.
 ~ Zen Proverb

 

 

miami heat vs. nets $967.80!!


last night i was on the phone with a friend when a call from an 800 number beeped in.  assuming it was a telemarketer i ignored the call.  earlier today, i realized that i had a message from the 800# call last night.  it was katelin from ticketmaster.  she wanted to verify that i had authorized a $967.80 debit card charge for tickets to the miami heat / nets game last evening.

the first question that came to mind was, is that baseball or basketball?  the next thought i had was, why would i authorize a charge for $967.80 when i had less than $500 in my bank account?

i now have negative $457.  

Mom

No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.
 ~ Buddha

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a thought for saturday


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“Health is the greatest gift, contentment the greatest wealth, faithfulness the best relationship.”
 ~ Buddha

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Nothing can bring a real sense of security into the home except true love.
~ Billy Graham

am i missing something here?


i don’t know anything about paula deen except that she’s a famous cook.  i’ve never watched her on tv, heard her speak or even heard anything about her ever.  is it true that paula deen is being disgraced for using a bad word 30 years ago?

i just watched a clip of paula deen on the today show where matt lauer harshly (in my opinion) interviewed deen, who appears to be genuinely distressed by using the bad word 30 years ago, has apologized, asked for forgiveness and says she is not a racist.  she went on to say,

“If there’s anyone out there that has never said something that they wish they could take back, if you’re out there please pick up that stone and throw it so hard at my head that it kills me. Please, I want to meet you.”

did i miss something big here?  i’m feeling a bit confused because if that is not the truth, i suspect a boat load of people would have come forward by now to deny that what she said is true.  if it is indeed the truth, i want to meet the person who has never said something horrible too!   are the networks really dropping her show &  destroying one woman’s career because she made a mistake while someone had a gun to her head in a hold up and she called them a bad, bad word?  

please do not confuse what i’m saying by thinking that i believe her name calling was appropriate.  i am 99.99% sure that i have never called anyone by that word, but i’m also 99.99%  sure i have said many horrible things in the last 30 years that i wish i could take back – and not even at gunpoint.

seriously?  is this a good use of media? resources? time – or, anything else?  how about a little forgiveness here? maybe some compassion? or even better, a little looking inward by all of the peeps pointing fingers  . . .  if using bad vocabulary once was the worst thing i had ever done, i think i would crown myself queen of the world.

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“If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call ‘failure’ is not the falling down, but the staying down.”
 ~ Mary Pickford

the way of it


back on retreat!  well, sort of. . .  i’ll be spending a good part of the summer out of the city and i’m currently enjoying another week at my friend susan’s house in upstate ny, which i refer to as susan’s resort.  the resort is on a mountain in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by trees, amazing landscapes and all kinds of wild beasts. everyday, rain or shine, i am compelled to go for a long ride to take pictures.

on today’s journey i was listening to wayne dyer speak about the tao by lao tzu. tao is chinese for ‘the way’.  i’ve listened to this cd many times over the last several years and never get tired of  wayne dyer speaking about lessons of the tao, which of course any taoist knows, cannot actually be spoken of.  if you don’t get that – no worries.  to simplify the idea, i can only suggest that it says something along the lines of, ‘we need do nothing for all to be done perfectly’.

after driving for about an hour or so, i realized that i hadn’t noticed any real photo ops.  this has never happened before.  i always see something photo worthy on my excursions up here in god’s country.  maybe i was so into listening to wayne, i had driven right by places that i normally would have stopped for a photo or two.  how unusual.  i decided to pay particular attention to the scenery and looked carefully so that i would be sure not to miss any beasts hiding deep in the woods.  driving about 5 mph for the last 10 miles home, i looked and looked as i listened to wayne talk about finding peace through the tao and how all that is, is already perfect, ect. . . .

as i drove up the driveway of susan’s resort, i was astonished that i had arrived home picture-less.  normally this would have upset me but i felt happy to have had the opportunity to listen to wayne talk about the tao suggesting that to be one with what is, is the way to peace or, (in my words) all things happen for a reason & if you just go with that, you’ll have peace.

when i got out of the car, i let ivan out of the back seat and then went around to the passenger side to get my bag and my camera.  i almost laughed out loud when i discovered my camera wasn’t in the car, but had been sitting on the kitchen counter inside the house the entire time.

wouldn’t that just be the way of it??

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“The wise man is one who, knows, what he does not know.”
 ~ Lao Tzu, 
     Tao Te Ching

i would like to thank the academy, my parents, god, nancy, dale, ellice . . . .


and especially shaun and mary!   i’m feeling a little famous.  i’ve been recently nominated for not one, but two blogging awards!

click here to read about the super sweet blogger award nomination from shaun.

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and click here to read about my new liebster award from mary!

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and be sure to check out the musings of these 2 amazing blogger-peeps!

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looking for reasoning to a complicated world

“Gratitude is the memory of the heart.”
 ~ Jean Baptiste

happy friday, new york (& beyond!)


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the perfect pigeon!

“You can’t live a perfect day without doing something for someone who will never be able to repay you.”
 ~ John Wooden 

zen in the woods


my brother once reminded me of the saying, “if you need something done, give it to a busy person.”  this is so true – at least for me.  ever since i lost my job, i have become less organized by the day, and have a hard time getting things done – which is very unlike me – at least the me i used to be.

i make lists.  and lots of sticky notes for myself too.  lists and notes used to keep me organized but these days, they just accumulate alongside all of the unopened bills that keep arriving in my mailbox. my lists, notes and bills have formed into a giant pile which i occasionally move around the apartment.  it is way past time for action!  so i called up my friend susan, who owns an awesome house two and a half hours outside of the city and asked if i could use it for several days to  organize the pile of papers and make an action plan for what to with my life. she agreed it would be good for me and gave me the keys.  ivan and i headed out around noon on wednesday.

so here i am with ivan, in the middle of the woods, in an awesome house with magnificent views and no distractions – except for the 2 amazon sized hawks that just nearly crashed into the huge glass wall in front of which i am sitting. wow – that wasn’t something you experience everyday.  hawks fly high and if i were in the valley below, they would have been off in the distance, like i’m used to seeing hawks. but this house sits on the top of a mountain and it really looked like they were coming in for a landing right into the living room!

it’s been pretty windy up here in the woods so when i heard strange noises right after the near fatal attack of the hawks, i attributed it to the wind.  it seemed like a good time to take a break from staring at my piles of papers and go outside for a possible hawk photo opportunity.  there i was, just standing on the deck quietly admiring the amazing mountain view and waiting for some hawks, when all of the sudden i was startled by very loud noises which seemed to be very close to me.  even ivan was alarmed and he can barely hear anything anymore.  i quickly turned around in an attempt to locate the source of the noise and just overhead, directly above the glass wall they had almost crashed into earlier, were two of the biggest hawks i’ve ever seen, duking it out on the roof – a bird fight!  i was so surprised and they were so close to my head, i torpedoed inside and i missed the photo op!  i’m  not scared of birds, at least i never thought i was, but having two hawks with 6 foot wing spans brawling less than 10 feet from your head is a bit frightening for any city girl.  once inside, i remembered that i had never heard of death by hawk for anyone so i returned to the deck.  by that time, they must have resolved their issues and had stopped the fight.  i got several pix of them leaving the roof.

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more adventures to come, stay tuned!

“I thank you God for this most amazing day, for the leaping greenly spirits of trees, and for the blue dream of sky and for everything which is natural, which is infinite, which is yes.”
~ e. e. cummings

attention


if you ask someone a question it is respectful to listen to the answer. the whole answer – not just the first part and then draw the conclusion on your own while you shift your attention to something else.  if you must type, watch tv or read your e-mail while in a conversation with someone, consider calling back later.

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“Genius is nothing but continued attention.”
 – Claude Adrien Helvetius

enlightenment in the supermarket


every once in a while one of the cashiers at food emporium will say hello to me. usually not. one customer seems to run into the next like one continuous order of groceries. i sometimes wonder if i will return home with someone else’s toothpaste because it became part of my order in the continuous line of groceries moving along the belt. then i worry that i will have to check the receipt and see if i was charged for the toothpaste. i am sure i will not discover the toothpaste until i get home and then i will have to go back to the store, wait in the customer service line with someone else’s toothpaste and my receipt showing the charge and fill out all kinds of paperwork in order to get my money back.

i wonder if i will be able to load my groceries on to the moving belt and get the ‘food emporium club membership card’ out of my wallet before the cashier is done scanning my items and it becomes too late.  i get concerned when i am swiping my credit card and the cashier has already began scanning the next person’s groceries and i still have to enter my pin #  and then answer some questions like “is this the correct amount?, would you like cash back?”   the person behind me is anxiously waiting for me to finish as her groceries  come crashing into my shopping bags that are still sitting at the end of the beltway. I still have to wait for the final verification before i can press enter and her groceries are coming down the belt at an alarming rate. i start collecting my bags to make room.  it is usually right about then that the ‘verification’ message finally pops up on the machine and the cashier, who already seems a little annoyed that i am not yet gone from the store, reaches her hand over to the swiping machine and without even looking, her index finger manages to find the big green ‘enter’ button and verifies my card for me.

this week was different.  as i stood in line, i watched the cashier graciously greet the person in front of me.  she mindfully scaned each item with a slight smile. she actually informed the customer what the total order came to an patiently waited for the woman to hand her cash. the cashier returned the change with a smile, bowed her head to the customer and proceeded to very carefully place the groceries into the bag.  she then quietly thanked the customer, gently handed over the bags, and bowed her head slightly once more.  this cashier had an aura of peace and contentment. you couldn’t help but to notice her equanimity. she was different from the rest in a most beautiful way.  i was next and i couldn’t wait to meet her.

she smiled and said ‘hello’ with deliberate eye contact.  with her steady slight smile she scanned my items one by one. i knew there was no need to worry about the condition of my eggs as they were gently placed at the end of the belt.  her name tag read, tenzen  –  the same name as the dali lama!   i asked her where she was from. she looked up and quietly said “tibet.”

she spoke perfect english in a quiet manner with a tibeten accent. i had so many questions. . .

tenzen escaped tibet by foot. it took one month for her to reach nepal. from nepal she travelled to new york city. there was no way i could take the time to ask all the questions i had. i told her i would get in her line again next time i came to food emporium to ask her more.  her smile broadened as she handed me my bag.  she bowed her head and thanked me.  i bowed my head and thanked her back.

tenzen seemed grateful to be a cashier in food emporium on 1st avenue and 72nd street where she is raising the vibration of each person in her presence.  there is much to be learned here.

 

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“Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all the others.”
Cicero